I’m tired of creating.

I’m tired of making.

I’m tired of trying….

I hate you. I was reminded of the things that happened, through dreams of you, through being around you.

How you treated me, how demeaning it was, I was reminded of it all. A long time has since passed, yet that feeling still lingers…. I want you.

I want you back by my side. I want to be by your side. But it is the you of the past that I love so, so much. That you will never return, not from what i observed. If only that pride was gone, if only courage was there….. If only there were truth in those eyes. I can’t reach you anymore, and neither can you me.

How fated it is, that our names stay together; that we’re always together yet apart; that you’ll be the only girl standing and I, the only guy sitting.

We go our separate ways. I won’t turn and look. ‘Cos what I’ll see, is just that elite, uncaring back of yours…

I’m tired of you.

Get out….

Get the fuck out of my head…..

I thought i found a place, where i can expect to see the same people everyday, to have fun, to talk, and to share our woes. To meet each other’s families, to see each other’s house, to experience each other’s lives.

Shirlene told me once, that i can click anywhere, thats why i don’t seem to have a fix place to stay. Does that mean that I clique everywhere?

I am a person without cliques. A person without romance.

This deep profound loneliness….. This profound emptiness…

Quote from Hiiragi Kagami(lucky Star): “I don’t want to be the only one left without memories with you guys”

What trash about global warming, when my world’s frozen solid….

Good evening everybody! its been a long time since the previous post!

Its exams and all know? But I ENDED UP WATCHING ANIME! Hahaha its too touching! .>_<.

Anyways, here’s a sneak preview of what I’ll be sharing with you great people during the June holidays!

:::::Anime Reviews:::::

Evangelion, Pani Poni Dash, Lucky Star(Oha-Lucky!), Tokko, Black Cat,  and maybe more!!!

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I’ll also be doing up my DeviantArt stuffs, like posting my portfolio up (with watermarks of course) hehehe they may be great in the future so watch out for them! XD

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I suddenly have an overwhelming feeling of becoming a hardcore Otaku…..

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Exams……….=.=” oops i forgot abt them. hehhehe….

*phew

I feel so totally like this right now.

peew~

Why do you always have that pent up look, as if your blood was boiling, as if your head is splitting. As if it were an instantaneous and unconscious reaction, activated only by the sight of me and nothing else.

Why do you always have that pained look…

So red.

You said before these words: “Even though you might not believe me“. These words have a profound meaning for me, yet its value has already withered and gone.

I said before these words: “I believe in you“. What does all these mean to you?

All the pain, the hurt. All the stagnant tears in the well….

Tell me that it was worth it. Tell me that it was for something.

Its been really boring recently, I’m always wandering, mind and soul.

Silently………………. searching for something past.

Everyone has met a person whom they like to be with.

I’m sure everyone has.

Who do you hope to turn to when you are down?

Who do you eventually turn to when you are down?

Who do you long for most when you are bored and alone?

Who do you long for most…. When you are lonely….

Hope, that Mr./Ms. Someone will be there for you when you need them the most. Its is only luxury. For in reality, there is only you…

Why?

Hi all,

Recently

The skies are grey.

The clouds are nay.

The winds are silent

The air stagnant.

Prep hard your oxygen tanks,

and prepare to breathe.

All the best, for the coming tests.

A tonne an eyelid..

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I’m such an ass….

I don’t know why, but its been sleepy days. I sleep potentially more than anyone in class and yet I’m more beat than them.

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There hasn’t been one day, since then, which i haven’t thought about you. Somehow everything I do reminds me. Every smile i see, every voice i hear…. every action.

A painful reminder of the past.

You seem to be more lively now then back then. I was right. I was the one chaining you emotionally down.

You care, i believe that. You cared, I have confirmed that.

Moving on isn’t an easy option for me. If it was I would’ve given up much earlier. But still I gave up…

What happened, along the way. What went so very, very wrong….

What happened, to that strength which i fell for? The will to remove yourself from situations you don’t like, and the people who don’t fit. Or was it simply a misinterpretation on my part? That it wasn’t strength, but a flaw. A weak-link.

What happened to that spirit which swept me away? Is it because you do not have anyone else to fall back on anymore? Let me tell you, that you are well on your own. But then again, so am I.

I know you. So I’ve been thinking to myself, “should’nt you be the one who hates it the most?”. All the acting “superior” and I-am-better-than-you shit is what you’ve always hated. And now you’re in the very midst of the shit cloud. Don’t you feel weird? Don’t you feel annoyed? Not even the least bit? You of all people should be the one rejecting them, yet now you are forcing yourself to mingle with them. You’ve been cruel to me, so now i guess this would make a good case study for “karma” wouldn’t it?

They are doing to you exactly what you did to me. But i’m here to tell you, that YOU ARE DIFFERENT. You are the only one, amongst that irritacloud of retar i mean moro i mean people, that do not act stupidly and annoy the rest of the population.

I am no longer interested(but i still care deep down) in what ever happens to you from this point onwards. My doors are closed(but you have my keys don’t you?).

You disappoint me…. As i have you.